I Miss You Hayley

I am the luckiest person in the world that Hayley choose me to be her mum

She was and still is the best thing that ever happened to me

Life was beautiful when she was in it

Hayley loved people and was a little show off

HAYLEY MADE ME LAUGH

She would always attract peoples attention -strangers would make a beeline for her and say hello

They would tickle her under the chin ,squeeze her cheek or hold her hand.

They would say –

What an angel

Are you looking at me? – you’re a nosey little girl you’re going to grow up and be a detective or spy!

This ones a wise old soul -definitely been born before

Ahh is’nt she cute

HAYLEY MADE ME PROUD

The doctors told me Hayley had a bad heart but she had the best heart of anyone I knew

She was braver than any adult

She nearly died at 2 weeks old but still tried her best to lift her head and look round her in Intensive Care

She did her best to smile despite being in so much pain

HAYLEY WAS MY HERO

But one thing I did’nt expect was all the challenges she would introduce me to

Hayley exposed me to the best and worst of people

She showed me how wonderful and how terrible life could be

I was’nt prepared for that

HAYLEY  WAS MY TEACHER

Everyday since Hayley died I have been struggling with Birmingham Childrens Hospital to improve their patient safety

After a year I am finally making small steps

Hayley has taught me patience and strength and true commitment no matter how badly people treat you

I am constantly amazed how someone soo little and who was only here for such a short time

Could turn my  life upside down and inside out

HAYLEY WAS SPECIAL

Hayley was my only child

She was part of me

I was there at the start of her life and held her hand while she died

Hayley was such a good child

I LOVED HER SO MUCH

I MISS YOU HAYLEY